Where is someone to rub my feet or giggle with me telling me “Thank you, Miss” as I make them wince, digging my claws into their bum and sides?

There are two things today, two people, who I am speaking with that seem officially Too Good To Be True.

One is financial slave I am in the beginning of acquiring.  He seems sincere and desiring to serve, willing to learn, and like just a generally sweet person.  He and I may work out well.  I’ll not say more as it’s too early to have much of anything Too say, ask me in a week or two.  But he did bring a smile to me today.

The second is that I have been speaking with a slave online for a short while now who I am just getting to know but seems to fit me Too Well.  Personalities, views so far on M/s and Lifestyle related things, general interests, and he’s good looking to me.  There must be something wrong besides the distance issue.  Gotta be.

Not that I’m being truly negative; rather, more humorous.

Anyhow, so I’m taking it easy and seeing what develops in these two very different cases.

So we had one session where I started to get to know him, he seemed serious and realistic, still.

And then he chickened out on our next scheduled appointment without a word.  Didn’t do the assignment I gave him which was due a day before (which led me to expect the no-show, at least), either.

I’m not upset about it, but a bit disappointed.  It could’ve been a very interesting and entertaining interaction, but he didn’t stick around to let it grow.  It happens, people often in this realm bite off more than they can chew and then have to re-think it or get cold feet later.

I don’t understand it, as it doesn’t happen to me (I am one who checks with themselves before agreeing with or suggesting things, so I always know if I can handle something), but I accept that it happens with others.

I wish him well and who knows, maybe some day our paths will cross again?

But, it’s still a shame lol.  It was fun thinking on the possibilities, though, so it brought some extra light into my life for a few days.

I want to administer an old fashioned, out behind the shed beat down on a sub.  Start some music that gets my aggression pumping in me and take my hands and feet to them.  Slapping, punching, kicking, dragging them around by their hair and leaving them bruised, bloody and crying while thanking me afterwards.

I want to carve great intricate patterns into a sub’s flesh using my scalpels.  Marking them with that moment for the rest of their lives.  Seeing their blood run down them and mopping it up as I go.  Placing a beautiful modification in them while they sit and take it at my hand.  They submitting to my will, my judgement, on what the design shall be.

I want to financially rape a high income businessman, make him have to live on the barest of essentials that month(s).  Make him feel the experience of scrounging to pay the bills again (or especially, if it’s his first time having to), desperately counting his money to see what he can afford on food, wondering if the gas in his car will last long enough…  Suffer for me, baby, while I roll in your cash and laugh at you.

And I still crave to find some pretty, young woman with glorious long hair who I can strap into a chair in front of a public group and shave her head while she bawls over it.  Take away in minutes years of growing it out, caring for it daily, and in one moment drastically altering what she sees everyday in the mirror, how she views herself mentally.

Plenty more, too.  But basically I would just like a good heavy and emotional scene to come my way soon.

I was very much looking forward to it; rare and extreme kink + bonus fees = the best kind of session. I love it when I get to play hard or do something that rarely ever comes up, as with this guy who didn’t want just the lighter side of breath-play but harder.

A fellow domina and I were going to partner up on it.

…but it’s looking like he’s going to chicken out at the last minute. She sent him a confirmation email this morning, he read it and has not responded yet and it’s 40 minutes prior to the appointment.

The largest issue with this calling it the high # of no-shows.

Still, better that he skips out when I’ve not yet left home instead of how some leave you sitting at the meeting place without a word.

I don’t mind cancellations, just let me know (preferably 24 hours in advance, but anything is better than nothing).

On the bright side, I received an email from a sub I’ve been chatting with about a possible session when he’s in the area. The kinks of his are ones I find terribly fun and he’s been most courteous in our discussions, so I’m hoping things work out for a session tomorrow; he’s going to be in town. The delightfully fun kink? Sitting on him and ignoring him for hours. Ignore-play is a tremendous good time with the right person. Hahaha! Love it!

So, a frown on today’s would-be session not happening… but a smile on a possible one tomorrow. I’ve been looking forward to meeting up with the sub for tomorrow, so at least I also got good news today, too.

Males and females are both wanted.  It is preferable that you are willing to have your face shown, but if not then means to hide your identity can be applied.

These will be of various fetish and scene themes.

Proper 2257 records will be kept.

Contact me for more information if you are interested.

It was both hot at points and hilarious at others. We had great time.

Today I’ve been working on my site, weeding through the photos taken and promoting my phone lines. It’s been a productive little day.

If anyone out there, especially subs or slaves, is not shy around a camera and would enjoy posing for fetish pics of various sorts, do contact me.

Also, if you have any good links to vegetarian-safe faux-leather BDSM gear I’m always appreciative. I already am familiar with veganerotica, thank you.

I’m not thrilled with having to buy leather, but there weren’t alternatives in what I wanted. The only place I know that makes “vegan leather” BDSM gear does not have purple.

Which brings up: If you want to get on my good side, an excellent start is to share info with me on where to attain online vegan-safe toys and gear. Good quality items, I know I can get a lot of things in cotton and poly-blends (and I do)… I mean things like Lorica and other faux-fur/suede/leather/etc or other materials.

Someone who will let me pierce and cut them, whether just for fun or for art purposes.

I have a passion for body modification whether temporary or permanent… and so rarely get to work on anyone but me anymore.

But let me be more specific on what I mean, since that’s such a vague statement…

I am a very considerate, sweet even, gentle and caring person to others. I am a very courteous person and take great pains to make others comfortable near me in every day life.

I am a very dominant person by nature, but in vanilla life I temper this for the sake of interactions with others.

When I state that I love being served, I mean that I love being able to place that particular form of self-control aside and let loose my dominant, self-centered side and have someone find their own happiness in catering to it.

I enjoy pushing a person beyond their comfort zone… but I don’t mean just in pain play or such as most expect. If someone expects this too strongly, I sometimes like to bore them to death… to cause that discomfort in them. Or if they offer me to buy me something, to demand a larger gift or money amount that makes them wince. Or texting them to drop everything and go to X place for my amusement.

Or just sitting down with them to dinner not requesting anything of them but with that delightful understanding between us that I could and they would do it in an instant.

I love having someone do for me. Sometimes the what is wonderful in itself, but the doing is the main focus. The following of my dictates, the anticipating and looking to my happiness and comfort.

I enjoy getting to be bossy and self-centered, love someone striving to enrich my life.

I’m sure all that sounds like I’m some horrid person, but I’m not. I always consider the limits a partner may have, respect them. I am a very courteous person as stated (even in “lifestyle” interactions many mistakenly think me not dominant as I can come across playful and sweet natured).

It is only with someone geared in my direction that I enjoy these things… it’s no fun if they’re not wanting it. That’s the very point!

As my forum signature jokes, I’m looking for the Jerome to my Morris Day. Or a stable of them. *smiles*