I spoke online with a young man who responded to me through another website about what I had written in my last entry about wanting something Hard soon. He had a wonderfully intense mental and emotional game in mind and I was absolutely intrigued. He sounded serious and realistic. This was not to be a one-time thrill, but an involved psychodrama between us of the sort I rarely ever get to indulge in… one where I would need to get to know his mind intimately and then use that information against him. He was an emotional masochist and it had the possibility of being something really unusual and special and deliciously extreme in impact for us both.
So we had one session where I started to get to know him, he seemed serious and realistic, still.
And then he chickened out on our next scheduled appointment without a word. Didn’t do the assignment I gave him which was due a day before (which led me to expect the no-show, at least), either.
I’m not upset about it, but a bit disappointed. It could’ve been a very interesting and entertaining interaction, but he didn’t stick around to let it grow. It happens, people often in this realm bite off more than they can chew and then have to re-think it or get cold feet later.
I don’t understand it, as it doesn’t happen to me (I am one who checks with themselves before agreeing with or suggesting things, so I always know if I can handle something), but I accept that it happens with others.
I wish him well and who knows, maybe some day our paths will cross again?
But, it’s still a shame lol. It was fun thinking on the possibilities, though, so it brought some extra light into my life for a few days. 
